Sometimes we can veer of course, even when we don’t exactly know what our course is. We may not have done anything different or be consciously aware of how or why we have drifted. Things may not have gotten more difficult or stressful, in fact they may have even improved; dramatically! Yet inside there is somehow a knowing of being slightly off centre. This doesn’t have to be a bad thing, require a story to justify it or to figure it out. But I have recently noticed that I have been hard on myself because of it. Trying to figure out why or creating a story of how I need to do something to get back to centre. Even though everything is as good as it ever has been. Until I realised that perhaps nothing needs to get ‘sorted’ or ‘fixed,’ not even my thoughts. So I relaxed and let go of the need to try change anything. Leaving it to itself and like everything else in creation it eventually returns back to centre, dissolving back into the formless source from where it came.
It is then when I least expected it a friend repeated something I had said to her a few months ago. And just like that ‘nothing’ happened and the feeling or sense of drifting off course had returned to centre, melting back into its source. Back to the resting place it never really left.
Reminder from the self…
You are already free; unbound in the eternal moment of you!
Part of the mystery of life is that you behave as though you are a helpless bottle lost at sea, being cast to and fro. When in reality you are the entire sea.
But do not worry dear one…
It’s ok to revel and get lost in the mystery. Just remember that whenever you have had enough fun that I am here. Always…