The threads that blur our freedom

The threads that blur our freedom

As long as you’re afraid of disappointing people, they have a hold on you.’ Anita Moorjani Mmm nice! Every once in a while I read a quote that stops me in my tracks. This is one of them, I read it earlier and it really resonated with something in me. So I just sat with and contemplated it for about half an hour, allowing it to soak into and work on me. Becoming aware of the areas and ways in which many people in the past and currently have a hold over me. Affecting what I say, how much I say and how I may act or not act out of a fear of disappointing people in my life. I am therefore being less than I truly am and creating a prison in my mind. Even though I may not always be conscious of it, this creates many threads that hold me back from being all I can and living a life of unconditional freedom. All this affects the experience of my freedom, which is unconditional, boundless and needs nothing. This reminded me of a Lao Tzu quote ‘Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner.’  This theme is very current for me as I get ready to publish my book ‘You Are Already Free’ on 4th May. I have came up with numerous excuses to delay the publication including thinking I am not ready, not fully embodied the message, not free enough, worried about being vulnerable and sharing my personal story, insecurities, fear of putting myself out there and of speaking my truth....
Excerpt from You are already free

Excerpt from You are already free

 When is it ok to let go?   Cick here for audio: http://ryandoherty.org/wp-content/uploads/2018/01/When-is-it-ok-to-let-go.m4a   At what point does the past become acceptable, ready to forgive, let go off, or move on from? What difference is it if a thing happened one minute, a year, ten years, a life time ago or even one hundred thousand years ago? It is still and always will be in the past, nothing can change what happened. No amount of feeling bad, holding grudges, unforgiving, anger, talking about it, making yourself or others feel bad about it can take it back or make it different in any way, it’s gone. Let it go. Why wait for years, a lifetime, a hundred lifetimes before you move on, forget it or let it go? There is no point trying to feel bad enough for it to somehow change or for someone to pay for it. When the only one who is paying for it is you with the poisoning of your present moment, which can never be replaced, renewed or lived again. So does it make sense to ruin your now by crying, ruminating over or trying to change the past? Why relive the past only for you to go through the same thing again and again and again and again and again and again? What is the pay off dear one? Don’t you want to be happy? Why do you torture yourself like this? Don’t you see the vicious circle! You are corrupting your present over your unforgiving of the past, thus creating another moment, a future and present now where you experience the same...
Will you join me?

Will you join me?

Will you join me? Can you hear the calling? Will you answer the call? If I told you that you must leave everything behind and you will gain nothing would you join me? Leave time and space behind. Will you join me? It will be your final trip but you will travel nowhere. Drop the holding, grasping and resisting for just this moment. Let it all go and pick nothing up. Will you join me? Allow the yearning, pain and chaos to bring you here with arms wide open. Drop. Drop it all. Drop into this. Oh won’t you join me? Join me here. It’s simpler than simple, perhaps even too simple. Will you join me? Nowhere to go and nothing to do but yet there is a dropping. Will you drop it? Drop it all and leave it all behind. Follow the yearning, answer the call. Will you join me? Go nowhere, always remain here. Stay here. Do not leave me. Just this once do not follow the mind. You’ve been down that road before. Will you stay? Will you stay here? Here no one is doing yet everything gets done. The tears of your sadness and joy are one. Nothing is needed because the story is done. The search, searcher and searched are one. Will stay? Stay right here. Where darkness and light are allowed to come and go as one. No words are needed, not even one. Now that you’ve joined me we were always at...
Rest in the eye of the storm

Rest in the eye of the storm

Rest in the eye of the storm What if the only place where we were to find our true existence and essence was at the heart of the storm; the eye of the tornado? And any movement from this centre be it action, ability or anything is an act of creation and movement away from self and thus into chaos. Brining you out into the storm of form, the infinite, formless, boundless space that is your true essence can never be found or known in a limited, finite form. Therefore we must transcend the desire and belief that we gain permanent, true peace in any form, including that of our own. We will no doubt experience and come to know our true, vast, infinite formless selves once we leave the body and world of form. But could it be possible to experience this while still in a body on earth living amongst the storm of form? What if we remain centred in the body, whilst remaining unattached to it or life? See them as garments and a play on a stage, letting them come and go as they want, in the knowledge that this cannot nor ever will be our true essence. By holding firm in the eye of the storm you know your truth and see life, creation, earth, existence and manifestation come into and out of existence. If you go out into the tornado – the storm of form – you get caught up in or ‘swept away’ with it. Hooked or involved in the drama of the play, resulting in an infinite number of creations, lives,...
Are you veering off course?

Are you veering off course?

Sometimes we can veer of course, even when we don’t exactly know what our course is. We may not have done anything different or be consciously aware of how or why we have drifted. Things may not have gotten more difficult or stressful, in fact they may have even improved; dramatically! Yet inside there is somehow a knowing of being slightly off centre. This doesn’t have to be a bad thing, require a story to justify it or to figure it out.  But I have recently noticed that I have been hard on myself because of it.  Trying to figure out why or creating a story of how I need to do something to get back to centre. Even though everything is as good as it ever has been. Until I realised that perhaps nothing needs to get ‘sorted’ or ‘fixed,’ not even my thoughts. So I relaxed and let go of the need to try change anything.  Leaving it to itself and like everything else in creation it eventually returns back to centre, dissolving back into the formless source from where it came. It is then when I least expected it a friend repeated something I had said to her a few months ago. And just like that ‘nothing’ happened and the feeling or sense of drifting off course had returned to centre, melting back into its source. Back to the resting place it never really left. Reminder from the self… You are already free; unbound in the eternal moment of you! Part of the mystery of life is that you behave as though you are a helpless...
ENOUGH…

ENOUGH…

When will you realise that you have enough? When will you realise that you are enough? Even more importantly when will you realise that you are more than enough? Just sit with this word enough for a few moments in your mind then invite it into your heart for a few minutes and rest with it in your heart. The definition of enough is adequate for the want or need; sufficient for the purpose or to satisfy desire. Now if it can fit so easily into your mind and heart then surely it is easy to see and recognise that you are more than enough. So as you can see, you are both adequate and sufficient for any want or need you have. As you noticed that enough fits easily into your heart and mind you are more than adequate and sufficient for any want or need you have that may arise. Most of my problems, needs, desires, sufferings and self doubt in my life have stemmed from the belief in some form or another that I am not enough. But this is a false belief arising from the ego and our perceived separation from our source and who we truly are. For the next few minutes sit with the word ENOUGH in your mind then allow it to gently fall into and rest in your heart. Try this for 10 minutes everyday for the next 21 days and see how you feel. Right now in this moment and in every moment of your life I want you to know that not only are you ENOUGH, you are MORE THAN ENOUGH exactly...
Suffering arises when we resist what is!

Suffering arises when we resist what is!

  The only time suffering ever arises is when we resist what is! How can you change what is? Yet we spend over ninety percent of our time trying to change or resist what is. Can’t you see the futility of it? It is like the grain of sand trying to resist and stop the tide coming in and thinking it’s the end of the world when the tide goes out. Has spending your life resisting or trying to change what is and trying to bend life to your terms or version worked? If so then great, keep it up my friend. But if not why not bask in what is for one single day! See if it does not change your life. Let go of it all dear one, let go of a way and world that doesn’t support you and lie back and bask in what is, then you shall float on the ocean of life and you shall see how supported you truly are. Lie back and enjoy the movie, it’s going to happen anyway! And you have a front row seat, so you may as well enjoy it while you are here and in the seat. Savour every breath and moment, for you will miss it when you leave the theatre. Resist nothing dear one, to resist is to mistakenly take yourself for form. Solid form resists, but your true essence is infinite, formless empty space. Do not confuse yourself for what is appearing within you, ‘empty your mind, be formless, shapeless – like water. Now you put water in a cup, it becomes the cup; you...

The wind of truth

    The wind of change and truth is upon us. There was once an old wind that whipped up gusto from beyond all for corners of the globe. It came from beyond the farthest star at the edge of existence and swept everything in its path along its travels, changing everything in its path. The ancients called it the wind of truth, for when it was to touch down upon the earth it wreaks havoc, changing and stripping everything to its very core. It always comes in the dark of night at the precipice of a global change. When it comes there is no place, man, woman, body, thought, emotion, desire or atom that doesn’t get stripped to its core. It’s stripping away and ferocity is so powerful that it leaves all standing naked before it, having stripped away all illusions, nothing but thy true self remains. What is left surrounding us is everything and everyone else’s true nature. It is as if all of a sudden the final veil has been lifted and we can finally see on this earth for the first time. The ancients have once again said that this wind is on its way to our glorious earth. What seems like our darkest hour is about to become our brightest, rawest truth and transformation. For when the wind of truth touches down it leaves nothing but the truth, stripping away all egos, falsehoods and illusions. Thy can call forward this process for the next twenty one days, as you go to sleep and as soon as you wake up, call on the wind of...
I Hide

I Hide

Thanks for taking the time to checking my blog! I will be sharing some things and insights I learnt along the way to realising I am already free. After spending nearly four years in a hellish darkness and depression I developed a deep intention and commitment to find my truth, live it and speak it, then inspire others to do likewise. From this commitment I chose to write a book about my journey called ‘You are already free,’ which has been recently finished and I’m currently looking for a suitable publisher. Even though I wrote the book ‘You are already free’ I still did not feel I had totally embodied or fully live the essence of the message.  This filled me with some hesitation, trepidation and fear about the time I would have to release and discuss the book and its message in public. In short I was having problems, owning and living the message authentically and unapologetically. Recently a mentor asked me what limiting story I was telling myself that is stopping me from living and fulfilling my commitment? This got me thinking, so I spent some silent time in nature to create some space for the possibility of an answer to come though. I wasn’t trying to think of the answer, but rather just focusing on the nature around me and be present in the moment. All of a sudden I had a realisation that I hide! I hide parts of myself from you… I asked myself why I hide parts of myself from you. Then let it go for a few minutes, allowing space and silence, being present...